Psalm 73:25-26
25Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire
besides you.
26My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.
As I was reading from the book of Psalms on Friday as I was flying to Chicago (for Baseball Chapel training), I ran across this particular passage of scripture and it really stuck in my mind. I’m not quite sure why, but God has placed a lot on my heart recently along these lines… is He really the strength of my heart? Is He really my portion? Is He really everything to me? Do I really desire Him more than any earthly thing?
Certainly not the easiest questions to answer… both humbling and humiliating all at once. It’s the whole “head answer” / “heart answer” thing… you know what I mean… in your head, you know the right answer and want to believe that’s the real you… but your heart knows differently?
Yeah. That’s me. I’m humbled that God (the creator of the universe and author of everything good) wants anything to do with me… yet humiliated that so often, I want nothing to do with Him.
It’s a terrifying thought… to know that you need to pray, asking God to help you make him your everything. Worries abound. What if He actually answers, but does so by taking everything else precious to me? What if He calls me to do something I don’t want to do to prove my trust? Do you go ahead and pray the prayer, or do you stand, firmly planted in your place of complacency?
I took that leap of faith and prayed. I’m both terrified and excited to find out how He answers. Maybe it’s a test of faith (as my friend Micah shared to me last night, like Abraham and Isaac). Maybe it’s more. Time will tell.
So how about you? Could you pray or sing this passage from Psalms 73 with all truth and honesty? Would you dare to pray that God would help you to allow Him to be your all in all?
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